So i had a weird dream and decided to post, maybe to see if anyone could tell me what it means.  But first I'll give up a bit of back story so it just might make a little more sense.  Thursday night I was finishing of a project for Design fundamentals, went to bed at 2am woke up to continue at 4am.  So with my 2 hour nap in the middle of the night, I went to 3 classes each an hour long, at school from 8:30 until 2pm.  When i got home at 2:30, I preceded to make supper and eat lunch.  Left the house again at 3:40 to get to Fabricland at 5pm at worked until 9pm.  Work was dead, but Gail was talking about bone beads and that she was talking to a guy to used to make then, but he used to make them in jail. And my mind did a little freak off my two hour sleep and wondered if they were human bones.  According to Gail it would take to long to make enough bone bead to hide a body.  So when i went home and to bed i crashed.  That night, last night, i dreamed that i had to cook pieces of people fresh, there was a tongue, a foot, a hand, and chunks of fresh.  Oh and a rat skull and i put it in my mouth cause i needed my hands for something, i quickly took it out once i realized what i was doing.  And there was a little human skull.  In the later half on my dream I had some one helping me, and then some one else found out, so in order to keep them from talking i figured i could cook them too, but since it was taking me forever to cook the meat i already had, because i just kept forgetting that i was supposed to be cooking it, so we figured that the best thing to do was make him eat some, that way he couldn't tell anyone. I realize that logic doesn't work but it did in my dream.  I remember that the foot had a note saying mom washed it so it was ok to cook. 
So that was my dream, cooking people fresh, and enslave another by making him eat it....

My exams went great to mild to gah.  In Theatre History i got 90%, Design Fundamental i got 81% and Drama 1000 i got 72%. so not too too bad.

HELLO LJ!!!!! How are you? I haven't posted on you in 15 weeks, it's a new record for me.
Ok quick update. Over the summer I went to Swift Current to see if I could have a dating relationship with Lee-Ann.  It didn't work. I was apparently not ready for a relationship. Which is fine. I guess. But since it was only my 2nd  I most surrently have lots to grow at.

And now I'm back in Lethbridge, taking classes.  I have 5 classes, but I may be getting kicked out of one because I don't have the pererquites for it. I'll find that out tonight or tomorrow. And it was a class i thought would help me out in life. It was Voice and Speech.  See don't you see the potential?  The classes are going alright, but I've  only been in school a week.

I have roommates, I'm going to have to see if rooming with boys is better then rooming with girls.  So far not to bad, I've only seen one guy once, and the landlord  works a lot.  The house is about  a half an hour walk to school. So not to bad, I just have to worry about my one late class that ends at 9:30pm.

I'm working again at fabricland, but i think i need to pick up another job to make ends meet. But my experience other the summer of not eating lots will help me not buy so much food. XD Saving money, I just have to keep out of my student line of credit, way to easy to be spending that money.  I'll talk to Heather and see if she can help me out.

Oh I've also signed up for 5 clubs, I'm not sure I'll be able to keep them up, but it will be interesting.

If from the place I leave. If from this earth I do go. If I have never truly said. I hope that you do know. You've touched my life. Youhave altered my path.  The times we've shared. I pray that it not our last. But if God does see fit. To take me home. This one fact will remain. It may stand alone. My friend my sister i trust that you know. You're in my heart and I love you so.

Aww a poem Chris wrote to me.

Hello all, guess where i am.  At my parents place, that i am. XD A nice 14 hour drive, oh joy.  Sleeping, listening to music, watching crappy movies, but hey it was the first time i watched movies on the bus. I Spy and CatWoman,  both i've seen.  Oh well.  It took me a while to figure out how to get the wireless to work.  I had to turn on the computer down stairs.  My hickey was spotted by my mother.  oh dear XD its mine and my first one XD

quotes cause they're always good to read, make you think and all that. These ones are kind of to fit my mood.

Some of else i had to go ouch.  some i nod my head at.  life goes on

So Jodi is moving out and i'm moving out XD It's all working out.  She asked me if i was ticked off, what do i say? "Yup"  big ol' smile on my face.  Oh the things i could have said the things i still want to say.   She sat beside me to tell me that she was moving out at the end of May, i'm like sweet i'm moving at the begining of May.  I wonder if she was wondering if i would be hurt by it, kind of takes the blow out of it if i was already going to move. 

But this is not a good place to be, not when i have volient impulses for both of them, wishes horrible diseases on them.   I'm a very bitter person. I realise is, many things have lead to this.

 She finds it odd that i've counted the days he's been here.  i know its her house too, but if we where being fair, then way the hell is he here 5 days out of 7, and sleeping over.  Oh the things i could say, she wonders if i'd visit her when i moved back down, i don't think so, there is no need for me to.  And i haven't liked being in her company for a long time.

I've put my name on my food, its mine and i have no desire to share.

Hello all. I haven't been on in along time. I should post more often but who wants to hear how we got new fabric in, i have 2 sewing projects on the go, and i had a fight with my roommate a while ago about her boyfriend. I'm figuring most of this would have no connection to people and most of the time i don't feel is really matters, why post, i'm just that lazy.

I'm feeling bad about neglecting people, i'm still not should when i stand with some people. I'm hoping must of them are still friends and allies. Here's hoping. I haven't really been in connect with to many... as in maybe 3 people in the last month or so, 3 who actually don't go on lj so hoot.

Here's an update of whats been going on.

Ok the fight with my roommate happened a while ago, as least the one about her boyfriend. I don't like him, there are things about him that annoys me. She got mad at me, and didn't speak to me for 3 days, well she had gone over to his place. Got over that at least it looked like.

Then it was my time to get mad. I'm not a servant and will not allow myself to be treated as one. I'm not someone who you can just order around, and not have me react. I locked myself in the bathroom for a few hours, only room in the house with a lock. I still don't like when he's here, cause she treats me bad, and disregardes me.

I've also thought about moving out. Maybe move to Fort McMurray for 4 months work my tail end off, just so i can move back here in Sept. In going to have to look at the pros and cons before i do. I've also thought about moving to Edmonton, but i have to wait until next year to try for U of A cause i think i missed the deadline. And i don't have anything to make a porfolio with, and they want one.

I'm going to fort Mac of Easter and my momma's b-day. see if A&W will let me work a little bit to make up the money i'm lossing by going up there.

I'm going to have to talk to people more, catch up and see whats going on.

Oh Kitty do you still want to go get sushi with me one of these days?

YAY i got a letter today from the U of L. I got excepted yay. I'm still debating if i want to go to Edmonton and go to the U of A, but my time limit is very small. So i have to work quickly.

Oh and my sister sent me Cock Soup XD oh rosters, why did they name a soup that hehe, silly soup people.

I found stuff from in email and thought i would share XD


Try to remember this the next time you're feeling down.

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.

He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.

"Well", he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.

"Now, who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

"My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20. Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE. You are special - Don't EVER forget it."

If you do not pass this on, you may never know the lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can bring. Count your blessings, not your problems. And remember: amateurs built the ark professionals built the Titanic.

YAY Birthday of the Nicole!!!!!!!!!!!!
XD *glomp* Love you, Miss you. Be Well on day XD. X3
*giant glomp*

Supper tonight was Booster Juice and sushi...
Daddy says i need to build brigdes...
i've become very good at alienating allies ><
the cat makes a purring pillow
"Be a man. Grevel" hehe oh tv you come up with the most interesting quotes

EWWW Tomato soup with peanut butter is not good, maybe i used to much? damn and i wanted tomato soup, well maybe not. but what to eat?

Land lord and lady came by today, came to change the walls in the shower. The anolyom was what was warping not the wall, no mold, yay. So they riped out the anolyom and some drywall, and cleaned up the tub, but won;t be back until tomorrow morning. And they had a look at the oven, we either need a new element or a new stove. I vote stove. Oh, and how things circle and seem small. My land lord and lady know the Lokhorsts and the Bamies....i'm like omg, but in my head. My landlord was Mr. Bamie's roomate long time ago. lol

I asked about Danny cause i don't keep in touch ever well, or at all. They said last they heard he was in Edmonton, so when Mathew was on msn i asked him. According to him Danny is now in the states doing missionary word with or for his church for 2 years. Wow he always said he would, Go Danny. Oh and Mathew now knows the joy of a slowcookers. i don't think he likes talking to me.

Michael was on msn too tonight XD YAY Michael i haven't talked to him in ages. I shared some stolen emoticons and talked about lemon. The threesome one from jodi i shared.... ones a pirate and one is going to be the ninja, XD smut.

I'm going to take pictures of the bathroom now and then when its done, to show people who probably don't really care. XD i'll email them to my mom too.

ok night night

Aww no inteview with Shoppers. :( so sad. So here is a singing hippo to make people feel better.

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=592635243

I'm randomly watching videos from myspace, so here are more cause i feel like sharing.
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=1339615856
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=621167676
This one is sad, save the dogs. no BSL!!!!
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=609969210
If you have a cat watch them as you watch this... Lemon is paranoid now
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=1239829616
We must all inspire to be like this kid.
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=774485430
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=599679149
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=816100684
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=1452846905
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=1413576946
Talking cats
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=1490013011
Gummy Bear
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=1615161509
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=668488783
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=556332984

Oh the angst of yesterday. I feel better now thank you. My paranoia is not a healthy thing. Its harmful not only to me but to others. I'm sorry i'm such a horrible person.

Ok now for what i've been up to since i got back, i can't remember a lot of it. Working, but not enough, i've gone hunting for a second job, to go along with Fabricland. I have an interview with Shoppers already... i don't know why i tried to look for one downtown when there are businesses closer to my house. $52 for a bus pass is an annoying amount ><.

I've almost done a dress that i started on the weekend, i was just lazy when the day ended and haven't picked it up again. I've also picked up a project at work, so now i have a jacket to sew as well, guess what i'm doing today with my day off.

I was at the mall for a good 5 hours yesterday, Jodi my roommate got her hair bleached... it just took 4 hours >< oh my... i'm never going to go blond. It cost $140 to get it dyed and cut. I'm glad she's having fun with her credit card.

Church makes by mad a lot, the things they say make me rage and scream... in my head. They follow a book that's had 2000 years of changes and manipulation, all male based put upon it. It makes the feminist in me rage. It's all hypothetical.

The cat lost his collar...maybe under the fridge.

Jodi's boyfriend annoys me, he makes her sad. And i really didn't need to know all this personal stuff about him. >< which i'm not supposed to let on that i know...joy secrets.

Work has been going slow, its hard to look busy sometimes when there is nothing to do.

The hot water here sucks... it gets used to fast, and i think we share it with the 3 other renters.. it's a fourplex. Oh we got a new landlady and lord. They live in Calgary. I'm not sure how they want they rent mailed to them.

I thinks that's all thats happened so far. Oh Keyano is mailing me a transcript. I need to apply for schools ><.

Merry Christmas to all XD

Hope is all going splendidly and family is well.
*GIANT GLOMP*

I saw many people today XD. I went to A&W with my dad and jonathan, and visited. Bonnie, Kylee and Shamena, Shamena said i could work while i'm up visiting... which would put money in my pocket. I got free food while my dad and brother had to pay XD hehe. I visited Kristine next, and watched unbeknown to me as she wrapped my present. I followed her to work, and saw what Kristine has been talking to be about. I saw Ryan and Jeremy, both where working. Ryan made me buy a manga, and i followed him around as he worked. Nicole was at Coles too, so it must have been fate. As i glomped her gravity became very strong and i fell on my tosh. Her sister and niece where there, i'm not allowed to mention my views on santa around her niece. Hopefully i get to do stuff with everyone. Nicole has you ever watched the movie Lady in the Water, my parents rented it, or my Super Ex-girlfriend.

Oh my mom noticed my earrings XD, i think she thinks there nice. Then she said something about my perfect hole less ears, so i'm not to sure. But she told my dad saying " April got her ears pierced, April got her ears pierced" and my dad being the crazy guy he is said didn't i have them before.... *sigh* *shakes my head* oh well XD

A few more bits of sewing and i should be all done XD hopefully.

YAY i made it home alive XD. I got in at about 11pm I left Lethbridge at 7:45am ... it was a long day, and i was up at 4:30am too... crazy me. They have yet to notice my new piercings, so i'll try and keep my mouth shut and see if they notice. The new windows are pretty.

I still have to finish touch ups on presents and wrap them >< i have two suitcases full of presents.... I did not realize i had got so much.

I paided rent before i left, so now all i have is $90 in the bank, and i allow Tracy like $76 and Chris $100. YAY but i get paided on the 26th so hopefully Jodi will be able to put my check in the bank. Here's hoping.